My So Called "Life"

So, On December 18th, 2006, after 4 days of labor, I had a c-section, and had my son Aven, Who was 9lbs and 19 1/2 inches long. Finally the wait is over, which is great.

I have been taking some time on recovering, and being a mom. Don't get me wrong, I love being a mom, but man is it hard! Aven has cholic, which stinks, but the good thing is that I have pretty much learned what he likes when he gets that way. The stinky part about it is that my husband doesn't know how to sooth him at all, so I am stuck all the time when he is upset.

I am happy to be going back to work on the 26th. It will be nice to have some regular adult interaction, and have a few hours in the day away from a crying baby.

I know it sounds kind of selfish, but I am suffering from a case of depression, and I think that a change of pace in the day will help alot. And plus, we need the money.

Anyhow, Thats pretty much it...

So, on Wednesday I look on my Myspace to find that my friend from childhood, Gwen, who was also pregnant and Due in Febuary, Went on a trip, and started having complications, and her plane ended up having to have an emergency landing, and she gave birth to her baby girl, who was a little over 1 lb. The little girl took her first and her last breath in the same, and died. I cried as soon as I found out, the saddest part about this is that this was going to be the first grandchild in her family, and that her brother Lazarus, who would have been the first child in her family, died about the same way. I am really sad for the loss because I couldn't go through that heartache. I admire her, and her mother, and my mother, and every mother who has gone through a miscarriage or still birth, because that to me would be the hardest thing to grieve and to heal from. To loose a baby is loosing apart of you, and that is something I do not want to face.

On to lighter news...


So, yesterday we had another growth ultrasound and check up. The first thing I did was do a three hour fasting glucose test, cause the doctor wants to make sure I don't have diebetes, Then we got taken back early and got our ultrasound, which we have on DVD! They did some 3-D images of him and it was really cute, Aven has a squishy face and he had his left hand and arm next to his face for the most part, the ultrasound technician shook my belly even to get him to put his arm down so we could get a clear 3-D picture of his face... Which we got one where he is partially covering his face with his hand. Anyhow, So Aven is now 5lbs! I think he will come early because he is just so big... My husband and I predict he will come at the end of November or Beginning of December... Which will be good, because we want him to be here before Christmas, it will be a nice Christmas present.

I started having contractions a little bit last night. I get alot of round ligament pain at night too, which sucks because i can't move much, and all i want to do is make the pain go away.

I love the experience that I am having going through the trial of pregnancy, but I wish it would be done soon, that way I can get onto having the experience of being a Mommy.

I talked to my friend Nicole last weekend after a long time of not talking, she was the one that wanted to be a mom and get married so soon, and I was the one that wanted nothing to do with motherhood and marriage when i was in high school. But now that I have all this, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Its kinda funny how I have the baby and the marriage first, very ironic.

Anyhow... thats all for now.

Ok, So, I finally decided to cut the crap and just part ways with Danielle... Im sick of dealing with waiting around for her to just accept that I feel a certain way... Frankly, I wish she and Blake never exisisted, because it just hurts so much to think I could have a nephew growing inside her, and never know it because she refuses to get a paternity test.

The only thing that matters to me now is the friends that actually care, and most importantly my family... Its easier to be friends with your family when you go and cut out those who shouldn't be in your life. My Sister and I have been alot nicer to eachother, and things have been pleasent...

Anyhow.. 69 more days till Aven's due date! WOOT!... im happy... I can't wait to be able to hold him.

So, its been a while... nothing seems to be getting better... everything is at a standstill. Danielle is still pissed off at me. And hasn't spoke to me in 3 weeks.

This morning I woke up, feeling a really bad pain in my stomach, like something was wrong with the baby, which totally freaked me out. So I got up and relieved my bladder, as I always do everytime I wake up in the middle of the night/morning... and then layed back down (which was kinda painful) on my left side and waited for the baby to move. Finally, after about a half hour or so he moved a little bit, which put me at ease and I fell back asleep.

I didn't want to get out of bed this morning... But I just keep telling myself.. I just have to get through this day, and then i have the weekend.

Stormie's Bridal shower is on Sunday, which is really exciting, cause now I have another married friend to have something in common with. A week from Sunday, Is Stormie's wedding, which I am totally excited about too because she asked me to take her wedding photos. Personally I don't know why she would want me to take her wedding photos since I really only do portraits well....

Anyhow, Danielle is still mad at me, and frankly... im getting sick of waiting around for her to make up her mind of what she wants to do in this situation... she keeps moving me down her top 8 like its a game, to see if i will take her off or something... personally... I think she is just being a little kid, and I don't want to condone her behavior, and the fact that she refuses a paternity test.

Anyhow... Thats all my ranting today.

Ok, So, most of you know how I am, and how I react to certain things, and how I use to react to things. Personally, I think I've mellowed a lot since I was 16, young and niave. This is how I feel now about things. I can't stand people in denile about facts, can't stand stupid drama that breaks up a bunch of good friendships, and I sure as hell am not going to stand and wait for forgiveness for my own personal feelings and beliefs. Yes, I've lost some good friends and some not so good friends because of this, but I honestly think that I've turned a new page in my life. my current worries have to do with me, my health or lack there of, my sanity, my baby's health, and my husband and family. As most of you know, I consider my closest friends to be family. But when ur closest friends can't accept that you feel a certain way, that is when family and friends are seperated and the ones who truly will love you unconditionally. I want to let the friends that are there regardless of my thoughts and personal feelings know that I truly cherish your friendships. As for those who do not want to put up with my feelings, it was nice while it lasted, and the memories will always be there, and al the luck in the world is wished apon you because at one point, we were friends.
Hayley

So, On Friday, my husband and I went to this parenting seminar with this life coach person spoke, at my parents church. It was really great! I could listen to her speak for atleast a few more hours. I really am going to take what she says to heart...
Anyhow, Saturday I went to a work party... it was really fun surprisingly enough. I thought it would be a little weird. But my team sure knows how to have a good time.
Sunday, Adam and I went to see gridiron gang, which was good, I enjoyed it, and didn't think I would. Then we went to My parents house for dinner, which was nice, because my good friend from Utah, Eliza, came to visit. She actually might come and live with my parents in January. Which would be so awesome!...We stayed there really late, which kinda sucked this morning waking up after only 6 1/2 hrs of sleep, but I think its a good trade.

I feel so much better now... my cold is pretty much gone... Which is good. Hopefully this will all be out of my system and I won't have any more colds all season long... Knock on wood.

Anyhow, Thats it for now.

Ok, So nothing much new... except for the fact that I yet again am sick.. I HAVE A COLD! YUCK! ... anyhow... sitting here... bored at work, and saw this and thought I would post a good laugh.

So, this weekend was pretty calm...
On Friday, Adam and I went out and celebrated being together for a year, by eating out at Olive Garden... alot fancier then our first date of Filibertos and Bowling. Saturday we ran and ran and ran... we stocked up on groceries, and cleaned. I feel really accomplished, because I finally cleaned out my closet, and cleaned up my living room, and got a new couch... since Tank decided our old one needed a bunch of holes in it. And we also finally got our old washer and dryer taken to the dump. So, we bought a futon for the downstairs, which is really nice, and My brother in law, Josh, helped us haul that junk out, and got to sleep on the futon... When Adam and I were putting it together, after tightening a few things down, realized that some of the pieces were backwards... and the metal was crappy, and adam tightened things too much, and made big holes in one of the sides... so we ended up having to fix the holes. But, its done, and it looks nice.

Sunday, Me, Adam, and Josh, all went out with Danielle to celebrate her Birthday. She is really showing now. Which is cool... cause now i really have someone to share all this experience with. She is in shock about it all, but she is happy, which is great. I personally think that she will be a really great mom. Then, at night ... we had Adam's parents over for the first time for dinner. It was really nice, and I think they enjoyed it. But didn't stay too late, thank goodness, cause I was exhausted. I have been trying to slow down a bit, but not take a nap, because I don't sleep well at night if I do.


Anyhow, Im just hanging in there, and waiting for the remainding days down to the punchline.

Ok, So here is the update...
Last monday, on 8/28/06 I had my doctor's appointment. The baby is doing great, he is getting really big. 1 lb 6 oz! I got an additional pic of him, and Adam was totally excited.
Adam started his new job that day here at my work, in a different department. Which is totally great because now we get more pay for him, and we have to spend less on gas and cars, because we carpool. So, im really happy about that too... It's nice to be able to see him, and since he works here, he gets weekends off too! I love it!

On Sunday, 9/3... we went to Adam's parents house for dinner. Dana apologized for talking about me behind my back and overstepping her bounds... which was really nice, because I didn't want to upset her with the bitter feelings I had had. I just want to forgive and forget.
Kristi, my other sister in law, who is pregnant, looked so big... she is really showing now. Im excited for her, because our kids can play togehter, and it will be nice to have someone who knows what im going through. After dinner was done she and I were sitting and talking, and I really felt the baby kick. Before, I could just kinda feel him move, but now, he is really active and actually kicks the outside of me and moves more frequently. I was really excited about that too. I can't wait for him to come... Only 3 months left. Sunday was also Dana and Trey's 1 yr wedding anniversery, which is cool, because that is the day that Adam and I met.

Over this weekend a big gloomy cloud fell over me. I felt very unappreciated and sad that Adam wasn't in love with me anymore. He loves me... but actually being head over heels in love, is not something were in anymore... Its hard to transition from the honeymoon phase, to the married and living it up phase. I just broke down on Monday, I cryed most of the day, because of just how I felt... Finally I told Adam what was wrong, it was so hard to get it out, because my worst fear is for him to validate that he isn't in love with me. But he didn't do that. Things are a big adjustment for him too... and I just had to realize that.

Today, is mine and Adam's 1 yr anniversery of being together. This is officially my longest relationship. We have come a long way and have gone through alot this year, but I am looking forward to it getting better and for us to grow stronger together.

This weekend we are going to go out to dinner to celebrate 6 months of marriage, and 1 yr of being together. Then Saturday is Danielle's birthday. .. But Sunday is when we are taking her out to dinner for her bday.. .and were going to do pedicures too!
Anyhow... back to work...
update later

Time is flying by so fast! Can you believe that I am having my baby in 3 1/2 months!... It almost feels like yesterday I was planning on getting married. On September 3rd I will officially have known my husband for a whole year! I can't believe it has been that long!... everything almost seems unreal.

So, Danielle is really feeling the symptoms of pregnancy as well, she goes in for her ultrasound and doctor's appt on friday. Im totally excited because I think that she and Blake will make really good parents. They aren't together, which is for the best at this time, but they are together tackeling their new arrival and making great progress.

So, not much has happened lately... on Saturday, Alex, Jason, Jessica, and Adam and I played the "dirty mind game" and monopoly... it was nice to get together with them, because its been a while since we all hung out and didn't have to spend any money. Alex is actually turning 20 today!... its so weird... cause he is like a brother to me.

Anyhow, The gravity and pregnancy symptoms seem to keep changing over and over with me, which isn't good because one minute I feel fine, the next I want to puke. good thing I only have 3 1/2 more months!... anyhow, not much else to say.

So, Yesterday I had work off, which was nice cause I hate working in general. Anyhow, I got my new air conditioning unit yesterday, and IT'S SO NICE! YAY! Anyhow, Im still kinda sick, I woke up in the middle of the night last night and was coughing up crap for an hour. I ended up holding on to my hubby to try and soothe me back to sleep.

So, Yesterday, my mom was at my house (which is a total mess) waiting for the air conditioning guys to be done, and she ended up cleaning my whole down stairs... After Adam and I got home we all sat down and had a long talk... We all discussed how both Adam and I needed to work together more and set some goals for ourselves... So the first simple goal I set for both of us that we need to get back in the habit of going to church and being spiritually in tune. Last night we read scriptures together and we had family prayer together. It is my personal goal to pray morning and night for personal growth, and to be more spiritually connected.

I think alot of why things have been going wrong in my life because of the bad choices I have made and because I haven't been going to church and being active. I think a lot of things will fall back into place if I start to make changes for the better... Personally, I want the feeling of failure to go away.

I think the biggest influence in my life growing up has always been my mother. When I was growing up failure was never an option in my mother's eyes. Cleanliness was next to godliness and everything was to be kept in perfect order. Now living my life on my own I think that apart of me is being lazy, and another part of me is just rebelling against my Mother. All of the bad choices that I have made in my life started when I decided to rebell against my mother when I first started dating... From there the choices that I made just got stupider and stupider! I can look back and say that I honestly regret it, but I don't think I would have met my husband if I hadn't chosen that road. All of the bad chocies brought me to him, a good choice. It has been hard with both of us trying to adapt to eachother's moods, likes, and dislikes... but it has been a good learning experience. Anyhow, I guess that personal changes and goals are something that I really need to sit down and think about how I am going to accomplish the things I want in my life.

So, Now Im back at work... Im not too excited about this, but it isn't too bad... They isolated me to only one lender, and it is the slowest one... so therefore, its not too bad. But my voice is still grogy, so my supervisor decided to save me from further pain. THANK YOU BETTY!
Anyhow, So ... My parents and sister got home from their vacation on Saturday, and our air conditioning that was suppose to get fixed, didnt!.. .So we are going to go with a different company, which means that I am stuck in a stupid hotel until the end of the week!

The hotel isnt that bad, because we only had to take Tank (our puppy) with us, and not Maddi (our other dog)... Maddi is staying with my parents.

So, Anyhow, The sickness is getting better... im in the "coughing up green gobs" stage... which is grose, but not so bad. And Adam is back at work too... He actually got called for an interview to work at a dention center in Eloy... So if he gets that job, I will actually be able to get a house out there, with a real yard, and be a stay at home mom. Which is great, because i really don't want other people raising my child...

But... Hopefully things will work out, im excited that im half way done till this baby gets to come out and make his debut.

So, Joe has been calling me still, just about every day actually... Which is not good because my husband doesn't like him, and doesn't like that I am talking to him. But Joe has and always will be a friend. And he is always so much fun to talk to, just because he and I are so much alike. He said he is coming here in a few months to visit, which is bad, because I will want to see him, and I KNOW, without a doubt... that Adam will not approve. Joe knows that I am happy, and that I won't leave my husband, and he knows that we are just friends... Adam is just insecure because I was in love with Joe for quite a while.

Well, I guess I don't have much else to say...

So, On Monday we had our doctor's appt, I really didn't want to go because my upper back was hurting so badly and I smelled like bengay, but... I had to because it was long over due.

Monday: I wasn't feeling great at all! I went to the doctor's and we got there around 12:30ish... Our appt was actually at 1:30, but we had to be there early for new patient check in. So, We got there and waited till about 12:45 and got taken back early for the ultrasound first. We were in there a good hour total! We got a few really good pictures, even one where the baby is waving... well.. SO... were having a BOY!... Not exactly what I wanted, but I pretty much knew were having a boy. So after a few other things to do in the doctor's office, we finally got outta there by 4:30! YUCK! I was so tired... Then we all went out to dinner and celebrated Adams Dad's birthday, right after we got in the car down the road after dinner, I ended up having Adam pull over so I could puke. So, we pulled over, I puked, then the car started going again, and I opened the door while turning the car around, and Puked, but got some on the door! So, now my car has a funny smell to it!

Tuesday-Now...

So, I first started out with back pain at the beginning of the week, well... Turns out that what Adam had last week I got! So now im sitting in my parents house (there outta town thank goodness!) and writing this because im sick of watching TV. I hate being sick, I got this nasty cough, sore throat, and nasal congestion... THANK YOU DANA! UGH!

Anyhow, so Why were at my parents house... On Tuesday night our airconditioning went from working overtime to not working at all... So, we packed up me and the dogs, and went to my parents house, and have been here since... Its not actually bad at all since they are all gone! lol... They got a big screen tv, a pool, a big yard for the dogs... everything I could want in a house... so yeah, I decided that Im gonna kick them out and I get the house... hahahahahahaha!

So, Neways... on top of all of this, both Adam, and I now need a doctor's note to go back to work... and Adam doesn't have a physician, and I won't be fully well until Monday, I would think... so yeah, Im gonna go call my OB and see what they say, and then hopefully we can find a clinic for adam to go to so he can go back tomorrow.

well... I don't have much to say, because im just too sick to say much more.
Ciao for now.

Ok, So before my husband there was a guy, a really great guy (cept for he never knew it). Joe and I were really good friends, and we dated briefly, but him being in Northern California, and me not willing to move, put a damper on things. Joe and I had the same birthday, so we really connected for some reason, and understood eachother more then anyone could ever understand. But when he came and visited me, when I had begun dating my husband, he turned out to act like a total jerk and ended up leaving early.

So, months later, after I'm married and pregnant, he calls me last night!... And why, but it felt natural, not awkward, to sit and talk to him... I talked to him for like 20 min, which was great; it felt natural again, like I had my friend back.

The reason why he called was because I had sent him an email a while back that was just giving me closure, and wishing him good luck in his life (this boy has serious commitment issues). Anyway, So he called, and just wanted to talk. Which was nice, because I missed talking to him. We use to talk everyday on the phone, and saw eachother every month or so. So, I am really happy that I still have a friend, although, we will never see eachother again because my husband hates him. Which is very warranted, because when Joe came last, it really put me in bind, because I still had feelings for him.


Tuesday:
Tuesday was the same old kinda day, but my parents took me and Adam out. My Dad even apologized to Adam for the behavior of my siblings... I guess my sister has seen some error of her ways, and wants to write me a letter, but My mother knows where I stand, and I do not want anything to do with her!... Well, we ate at Marie Calanders, which was good, but then I got home and lost my dinner! Yuck, so this pregnancy thing is really starting to adgitate me; I have to wear looser clothes, sleep on my sides, only eat certain foods, and now I get sick again at night!

Yesterday: So, My stupid sister in law, DANA!, got Adam sick... Now adam has this throat and cough thing going on... Im so mad, he shouldn't have been sick on his birthday!
Anyhow, so a day off of work was nice. Im totally burnt out! I wish I wasn't here today too. My poor husband, he is sitting at home again today, sick as ever.

This morning has been really boring at work, Im just so sick of sitting and doing nothing. Don't get me wrong, atleast I get to sit and chat with my work pals, but I would rather be sleeping.

Thing I learned lately: My friends Danielle and Stormie are pregnant! So, we can all suffer together!

Things looking forward to: MONDAY! BABY DAY! YAY!... and today, my plumber is coming, and my thermostat is being replaced! YAY!.

On the flip ... crip.

Ok, So alot of things have been stressing me out lately and I don't know what to do about it because most of it is out of my hands. (Don't you hate that?)

Friday: Friday was great, except for my husband came home way late, and we almost didn't make our movie because his stupid work made him stay an extra 30 min, then he had to drive from north scottsdale all the way home in rush hour traffic!... So that pissed me off, but it was soon reconciled after I totally stressed myself out over our insurance payment that my husband had said (but was found to be wrong after the fact) was suppose to be paid on friday, and didn't let me know to pay it! So, that of corse pissed me off... Another thing happened... The AIR CONDITIONING! So, when I got home, I found my husband had turned up the Air while we were gone to 81! Aparently my thermostat isn't working properly because it was 95 when i walked into my house! I WAS PISSED, (you never should piss off a pregnant woman!). Anyhow, so I ended up temporarily fixing it, I learned that if I jacked it down to as cold as it can go, it would keep running normal. So, the house ended up being 60-70 the whole weekend. Hopefully my thermostat that I am going to buy will work better...

So, we went to the movie Lady in the Water.. Let me just say if you have ever seen this director's previous films, you would know my oppinion of this one! IT BLEW CHUNKS!... I can't believe I wasted $6.50 on that crappy movie!.. DO NOT GO SEE IT, you will be dissappointed.

Anyhow, It was really nice to spend time with my friends and just catch up, and laugh, and be crazy like the old days... Im so excited that my pal Stormie is Pregnant, she is just glowing, and looks the happiest i've ever seen her! So, We all went to Denny's that night, and it was just really nice to have some fun out of my house!

Saturday:

Since we got back REALLY late on Friday, I ended up making the descision to call in sick for my husband because he was REALLY tired from the night before... So Saturday was good for the most part.
First we woke up after sleeping in late, and went and paid his insurance which was acutally due on Saturday... then we went shopping for our groceries, and looked at used cars to try and get something different then my husband's stupid gas guzzling piece of crap truck!... Finally, after relaxing a while I decided to call my mom up and see how she was. She invited me over for dessert and said I could bring my two dogs with me... Well Aparently my sister and my older brother didn't like that and were total jerks about it. And it put me to the point of walking out after only being there for 15 minutes. My Mom was mad because they acted childish about me bringing my dogs over.

My sister's reasoning... She thinks that the younger of the two dogs we have is big (he is 25lbs) and hairy (short haired dog). And shouldn't be there... Although, she was begging me the last time I was there to bring my other dog, Maddi, who is about the same size... But the thing is that she plays favorites and is two faced... So she was the one who complained first...
My sister: She has a 2 yr old son, and she lives with my parents, and is 29 yrs old. She has had the biggest screw ups in life, and wasted over 6 yrs of college money from my parents at various colleges, and STILL is working on her associates degree... SHE IS A LOSER! Anyhow, she is miserable because she has no husband, and is stuck living with my parents. So she takes everything out on me. I would be miserable too if I was in her situation (thank goodness im not). Either way though, she just is jealous of me. ...SAD HUH?

My Brother's Problem with the whole thing: A couple months back, my brother's idiot wife went walking in their trashy neighborhood, and this dog started chasing my brother's wife, and 2 yr old son, and their little Yorkie Terrier Cody (Cody has known my dog maddi since he was a puppy and has always played with Maddi). Well, I guess because that neighbors dog attacked cody, and my brother's wife and son, my brother doesn't like any other dogs around his family... WHICH IS COMPLETELY STUPID! My brother makes no sense, and he thinks that my dog is bad, all because his wife didn't do anything about that other dog.
My brother has always been "The golden boy" of the family... Because he went on a mission, had the first grand child, played basketball and soccer in high school, and all this other crap, he has gotten everything handed to him on a platter!... he is a JERK! He has always acted high and mighty and personally I am sick of it all. He has anger issues, and he treats his stupid wife like crap... Then again, I really hate his wife too.

So both of my oldest siblings ended up being crappy, and in a nutshell I am never going over to my parents house again.

Sunday:
Sunday was great... I slept in, had some quality time with my hubby, and went to my in-laws house to celebrate my brother in law's b-day Josh, and Adam's b-day... It was great... they make the BEST chocolate chip cookies ever!... I crave those things!...



What I have learned the past few days:

I've learned that no matter what, you can't count on your own flesh and blood to be the best friends you could ever have... Who ever came up with that is FULL OF CRAP!... I've learned that the only people I can truely depend on anymore are my husband, myself, and his family... My family are full of hurtful comments, and self righteous behavior, and bitterness.
Family is suppose to mean unconditional Love... Therefore, my family I was born into isn't a family; we just share the same genetics.

What I look forward to:

The ultrasound! YAHOO!... only 7 more days left to go!... I can't wait
Hanging out with my friends again... espacially Danielle, who just got back.
and having a mini vacation with my hubby on wednesday...It couldn't come faster!
Leaving work today, I hate monday's.

Things to learn this week:

Get in the habit of eating healthier and more protein enriched things. This baby is going to have the weirdest eating habits, hopefully I can reconcile things before it is too late.

Learn how to avoid my siblings that are crappy, while trying to keep a good relationship with my parents.

Things to do:
Get a plumber... Mom and Dad STILL havent gotten one.
Clean the house... it is getting dirty again, but atleast our kitchen is really clean.
Clean out my storage closet, so we can fit the laundry machienes in it nicely.

Anyhow, I think I have ranted enough...

Ok, so im sitting at work, bored out of my mind when i discover that i can get on this site (most sites are blocked) and sit and write... So I guess this will be my personal rant and rave site... Cause a hurricane or natural disaster hasn't occurred yet this season, therefore, my job is just to sit and wait.

About me, Well lets see... I am 21, not a drunk, and married to the best man I could be married to. He is the love of my life, and I am happy about who I am meant to be with for the rest of my life and hopefully eternity... And we are currently expecting our first child... The baby's ETA is December 21st... personally I hope I have him or her before Christmas, that way I can actually be home on Christmas, and enjoy my newborn. A perfect time to have a baby in Arizona, not too hot at all. So, I am excited... I find out what I am having this month, in 10 days! only 10 more days to go! WAHOO!! anyhow, I am already past the half way point, and wish I was further just because I don't like the heat, and the constant uncomfortableness I feel all the time! Oh, how I wish I could lay on my stomach in bed! This baby has been a big trial on both me and my husband, but it is definitely a learning experience. It is so hard to be independent for 2 years, and have your own place that is called "mine" and then adjusting after marriage to "ours".. because now nothing is solely "mine" anymore... Sometimes that really bugs me, but it is a rewarding experience being married and finding common ground to stand on, and learn what you don't know about the person you married... I learn new things about my husband every day... He never ceases to amaze me!

Lesson learned recently:
When you marry someone, you don't only marry them, you marry their family, their friends, and their DEBT! Make sure that you know what exactly you are getting into before you take on a marriage... ITS SCARY!

WORK:

So, work is another venting I like to talk about... personally I hate my job, but not many people like their job because it is something you have to do, not want to do! It is kinda sad that my job depends on how many people are going to have bad things happen to their home; it almost makes me feel guilty about my job. My job has really good pay, and Im good at, therefore I will keep at it until my life situation changes, which it probably will in December. Hopefully My husband will get a new job that pays better, and I will be able to be home with my child, raising my children is my #1 priority in my family life. Anyhow, Work is just dull, and my Supervisor hates me, which sucks, cause the supervisor that I want to be under is SO much nicer! I just would rather have a supervisor that commends me, not chastises me for asking for a vacation day, or 2 hours off for a doctors appointment, or not backing me up when I get a death threat on the phone! She was cool at first, but she just seems so cold now; and I don't appreciate it.

WHAT I HATED THE MOST THIS WEEK: Ok, so my husband's brother and his wife annoy the crap outta me now! At first, we were really good friends and went over to their house all the time... Now, its like all they wanna do is use us... We were planning on going to California to see a friend around September, and Since it's their anniversary around that time, they just thought that they would join us... NOW, they keep hounding us about plans and if we have the time share that week, to make sure we have plans set... I WANNA SNAP AT THEM SOOOO BAD!... There are just so many things that I can't stand about them... The wife, she acts like an 8yr old all the time, because she has depression and knows it, but refuses to do anything about it! So, he makes up for it by babying her, and buying her roses like every week! Then, she proceeds to gloat to me about all the things he does for her, and all the roses he buys for her... ENOUGH IS ENOUGH DANA! IM SO SICK OF HER PETTY AND CHILDISH BEHAVIOR I WANNA JUST CONFRONT HER ABOUT IT!...

"IT'S A GOOD THING":
The good things that have happened recently are that we got a washer and dryer finally, and it only cost $100, and its only been used a month. FINALLY NO MORE LAUNDRY AT MY PARENTS!

Things looking forward to in near future:
Tonight, a triple date with Alex and his date, Stormie and Charlie, and me and my Adam.

Tomorrow, getting my washer and dryer hooked up finally!

Wednesday, Adam's birthday, and a whole day off with my hubby!

Anyhow... until next time...